Monday, November 15, 2010
God Gave Me You...
I came across this song recently and it just washed over me like the warmth of a down blanket. I am so thankful for the husband God gave me. You know, the statistics are pretty low that a girl would find "the man of her dreams" in high school and it stay that way. It's so cliche, but I really did marry my best friend! I found quite a gem, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank my God for him over and over!
We've done a lot of growing up together...literally. We met our sophomore year in high school and immediately clicked. Of course our first few months as friends was mostly me chasing after his friends, but he was always there. We would talk on the phone for HOURS. Laughing...endlessly. Nick is the funniest guy, I know. Back then I just thought everything he did was charming...now of course I don't have the humor I used to and sometimes I just roll my eyes, but I still think he's a comedian!
The last year has been really hard for both of us. Personally and professionally, we've both had our own struggles to deal with but one thing that has remained strong is our love and devotion to each other. We've grown up even more. I'm always surprised by the strength and faith this man has. He is my rock here on earth.
The last two weeks have been a blur to me, although I feel like I'm moving in slow motion, but he is never rude or harsh or impatient with me. He holds me when I cry, lets me vent without a hard word, and is always ready with a scripture when I'm at a loss of words or faith. I love him...
This summer we watched the movie Fireproof for the first time. Now, Nick and I are big movie buffs and we struggled to not just turn this movie off. A lot of people had recommended it to us, and we just kept looking at each other in complete shock that anyone could possibly enjoy this movie. The acting was...well, painful to watch. I prefer the more A-List talent of Robert Pattinson in Twilight, Miley Cyrus in The Last Song, or even Jack Black when he guest starred in Yo Gabba Gabba, so the lackluster performance or Kirk Cameron nearly brought tears to my eyes. However, we did not turn the movie off, we kept watching...and I'm so glad we did. There is one part in the movie where Kirk Cameron decides to relentlessly beat his computer monitor when pornography was coming in-between his marriage. In the computer's place, he left a vase with roses and a note that said,
"I love YOU more."
And that's when the movie won me over. Isn't that what marriage is all about? Choosing your spouse over any other thing in this world? Nick and my marriage are not by any means perfect. We struggle with temptation, we fight...we're human. But there have been times when we literally had to decide if we loved each other more than the struggle.
It was a major turning point in my thought process. I pretty much bawled the rest of that horrible movie, but it was because it was good. The point was there. And every time I feel the temptation to do something that might hurt Nick, I remember to choose. It's a choice.
Thank you Nick for being my rock. For patiently watch me struggle through the pain. And always having your arms open. You are amazing and a gift straight from God to me.